Stigma and Psychiatric Medications: Dr. Double Bind

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I am so sick of individuals with Ph.D.s who go around trying to “spread the gospel” that people who take psychiatric medications are participating in (a direct quote from one such individual) “a worldwide Holocaust”, and who make a living writing books about how psych meds are responsible for murder, suicide, and other violent acts. I do not like Big Pharma. … Read More

jenniferlreimerStigma and Psychiatric Medications: Dr. Double Bind

“Have You Taken Your Meds Today?”

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Alas, a question that us psych patients have heard far too many times – after all, one time is “too many” – from our nearest and dearest.  However, it was no one near, nor dear, that, very bizarrely, popped the question to me the other day.  An “anonymous” prank phone caller, after eerily listing off a list of women’s names in monotone … Read More

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SSRI Withdrawal Nightmares

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This morning I opened my comments box to find a belated Christmas gift – someone, upon finding my blog, specifically these most recent posts (link 1) about SSRI/SNRI Withdrawal (link 2) and night terrors, was inspired by it to begin his own blog on the same topic!  I am so honoured and humbled by this huge compliment. Please stop by his … Read More

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The Night Terrorists Descend

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One week into my new dosage of Effexor XR (112.5 mg, down from 300 mg), which my psychiatrist back in Vancouver (I am in Winnipeg now, for the “holidays”  ) promised would be enough to starve off any effects of the withdrawal syndrome that I know far too well, which includes insurmountable fatigue (during one past attempt to quit the … Read More

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“Are We There Yet??!” My Last Days on Effexor XR

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Just as I was about to shout from the rafters that I’m down to 112.5 mg of Effexor XR, down from an initial dose of 600 mg, and a steady dose of 450 mg for almost exactly seven years, and better yet, will soon say goodbye once and for all to the substance that has done nothing but make me … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Are We There Yet??!” My Last Days on Effexor XR

Chasing Ghosts/What Flu Season? It’s Effexor Withdrawal Season…

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A week into my new antidepressant-free existence, the withdrawal syndrome (from Effexor XR, taken for seven years,  six of them spent at 450 mg, this most recent one on 300 mg after a 150 mg in one shot taper during my hospital stay in February – the first one of those in five years… :takuts ) caught up with Ms. … Read More

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Searching for Permanence on the Downtown Eastside (Broken Glass)

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If you have read some past posts I’ve written about the Downtown Eastside (DTES) (most can be found here), “Canada’s poorest postal code”, Vancouver’s skid-row, “the site of the only open-air drug market in Canada” <quick, get the children away from the TV set!>, you know that I’m a little enamoured with the place.  Like me, it’s got very visible … Read More

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“You’re Fired”: Why I Hate Donald Trump, but Love Firing a Bad Psychiatrist

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When I was released from the hospital, here in Vancouver – St. Paul’s denison of horrors to be specific – in February, one condition of my freedom was that I see a psychiatrist at one of the regional hubs for “mental health team” intervention in the city.  I had tried utilizing this service once before, when I first moved here, … Read More

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We live on a mountain, right at the top

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Effexor: Evil?, Other Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal

Picture a switch. Today I believe that I and my loved ones are destined for greatness – that we’ll do something no matter how big, no matter how small, that will change allathis for the better, that multiple consciousnesses will be unburdened, some degree of freedom will somewhere, somehow, be attained because of us, this moment, the next… Back in … Read More

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New Seroquel XR TV Commercial

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“You’ve been on an antidepressant for 6 or more weeks, and you still feel depressed…” (as seen in “Good Housekeeping” magazine!”) “…call your doctor if you have thoughts of suicide…call your doctor if you experience muscle twitching, as this may become permanent….call your doctor if…could lead to a reaction causing coma or sudden death…could cause a significant rise in blood … Read More

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“Walked into the Winter, Came Out on the Other Side…”

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, Other Survivors, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward

Sing it, Conor! Today in Vancouver: I was released from the psychiatric ward at St. Paul’s Hospital, and the sun came out, releasing the crocuses from the ground – how poetic.  I feel like I should post seperately about a litany of issues that arose upon my exit from this specific institutionalization, some (one? :gila:   ) positive, the rest negative, … Read More

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scarsarestories’ Radical New Year’s Resolutions

jenniferlreimerBipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, The Psych Ward, Transcend

1. I have emancipated myself completely from any financial or emotional entaglements with my family.  Thus, I will not be ridden by guilt mixed with my father’s own complexes about debt and baby-boomer cognitive dissonance about riding the wave of booms in the 1980s, only to leave their children with no job market, and to find themselves in debt that … Read More

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SNDRI (Serotonin, Norepinephrine, Dopamine Reuptake Inhibitor Antidepressants!) – The Next Revolution in Mental Health Treatment: An Acronym

jenniferlreimerEffexor: Evil?, Mad Society, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Sociology of Medicine

Coming soon to your neighbourhood pharmacy! K.’s biopsychology professor mentioned Effexor in class today.  I had told her before how in high dosa, like the massive 450 mg I take each morning, it actes on three different neurotransmitters – serotonin, norepineprhrine, and dopamine – unlike SSRIs that only act on one.  However, it is classified as an “SNRI” – a … Read More

jenniferlreimerSNDRI (Serotonin, Norepinephrine, Dopamine Reuptake Inhibitor Antidepressants!) – The Next Revolution in Mental Health Treatment: An Acronym

Stress and Brainzaps and Waiting to Die (Thanks Wyeth!)

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Effexor: Evil?, Poetry, Prose, Personal

*zap* *zapzapzap* *zapzap*    *zapzapzapzapzapzapzap*   *zap* Am I getting any closer to the colour of the big red capsules (150mg Effexor x 3)?  Seems I can never get it quite right, and such is life. Always the one to spill the glass of milk.  Always the one to cry about it.  Always the one that can’t understand how not to. “Just … Read More

jenniferlreimerStress and Brainzaps and Waiting to Die (Thanks Wyeth!)

Effexor Withdrawal Syndrome and NIGHT TERRORS – NOT “vivid dreams”

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I suppose this is a bit of an addendum to “Apocalypse Effexor: Redux“.  As said in my last post, I missed my dosage of Effexor yesterday – Monday, Oct. 11. I sleep on the couch in my temporary homes.  I need to be covered in the energy of the ten cats that have called it home now – whether in … Read More

jenniferlreimerEffexor Withdrawal Syndrome and NIGHT TERRORS – NOT “vivid dreams”