Scarsarestories Stumbled Upon…Thanksgiving, Helvetica, and Other Mediocre Films.

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Fellow Canadians know that it has been Thanksgiving long weekend up here, and it has definitely been just that. Long. My roommates are out of town visiting family.  My only interaction with family involved a surprisingly kind but bizarre (as is par for the course) conversation over Skype with my stepmother, the point of which seemed to be to get … Read More

jenniferlreimerScarsarestories Stumbled Upon…Thanksgiving, Helvetica, and Other Mediocre Films.

Effexor Withdrawal Options, Sleep Paralysis, Struggles with “Everyday Life”.

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No, it’s not Sunday.  It can’t be Sunday. It’s pharmacy day, isn’t it??  Ok Computer? Phew.  My interface takes a few minutes to catch up with the world.  2:3something pm – 2:3I’malazyself-loathingdumbassandmostofthe”day”isgone, well, thedaythattherestoftheworldoperateson, failure. I’m so behind, so behind…missed a package from Fed-Ex and a visit from the phone/internet hook-up people. How lazy can you get? Oh, but scars … Read More

jenniferlreimerEffexor Withdrawal Options, Sleep Paralysis, Struggles with “Everyday Life”.

I want to make a mistake, I want to do it on purpose, I want to waste my time.

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Effexor: Evil?, Feminism and Madness, Mad Society, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Sociology of Medicine

-F.A. -(from Apocalypse Effexor: Redux Diary page…therefore unedited! :malu: )…not usually.  But Effexor-wise, this is kind of how I feel about my week without Effexor, and its end in a plant-derived, dopamine raising substance that wasn’t paid for by the government, as the Effexor tablets, that would cost about $400 a month are.  I made a “mistake”, more an accident, … Read More

jenniferlreimerI want to make a mistake, I want to do it on purpose, I want to waste my time.

CALLING ALL DOCTORS/PSYCHIATRISTS: I NEED HELP GETTING OFF EFFEXOR *FAST*

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Okay, so I cannot go at this – getting off 450 mg Effexor – alone, and actually am going to be self-medicating with “illegal” drugs until I get more Effexor on Monday, as I woke up, after doing absolutely “insane” things during a 48-hour “sleep” (ex/ hiding my clonazepam and codeine pills, in absolutely bizarre locations – one under the … Read More

jenniferlreimerCALLING ALL DOCTORS/PSYCHIATRISTS: I NEED HELP GETTING OFF EFFEXOR *FAST*

Going off Effexor cold turkey: will it last? what will I experience? what will I learn about this drug and myself?…

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Those questions cannot be answered yet.  I do feel like a barf sandwich with a “way too much” slathering of sketchyup a side of fray-dumb fries.  I actually   The goal I’m focusing on right now is, well, now, and I must change tasks.  Find the journal of my experience trying to go off Effexor cold turkey by clicking on … Read More

jenniferlreimerGoing off Effexor cold turkey: will it last? what will I experience? what will I learn about this drug and myself?…

“Brainzaps: A Journal of Effexor Withdrawal” – An Homage in Radical Difference

jenniferlreimerEffexor: Evil?, Meds, Meds, Meds!

You can pay tribute to an artist by doing something radically different with their art.  This is essentially what I do with my mixed-media/collage past-time – I use images in a way they were never intended to be used, to varying degrees, to emphasize the obvious that goes unseen through most of our trained eyes – trained by the social … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Brainzaps: A Journal of Effexor Withdrawal” – An Homage in Radical Difference

Pristiq’s BLACK WIND-UP DOLL: Truly Disgusting Example of Current Social Discourse

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I remember when there was the first black Barbie doll.  I was very young, and did play with barbie dolls, and thought it was totally rad.  Only I was very mistaken, she (Christie, huh, the same name as my childhood “imaginary friend” that was a little more than that…that’s a story for another day, though) was not the first, and … Read More

jenniferlreimerPristiq’s BLACK WIND-UP DOLL: Truly Disgusting Example of Current Social Discourse

Ethnobotanicals Versus Pharms

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The note from the editor is priceless! Not exactly what you read on pharmaceutical labels.  So much more honest.  Witty!  Benevolent! Could the recent uprise in websites selling ethnobotanical/entheogenic plants be seen as a, perhaps unintended, but still, a reaction to the rise and slight fall of “cheap pharmaceuticals” from places like good ol’ Canada, mostly sold to Americans without … Read More

jenniferlreimerEthnobotanicals Versus Pharms

Zap, Zap, Zap…oh, I forgot about you, Effexor!

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IT ALL MAKES SENSE!… I woke up at 6 am, 8 am, and then fell asleep and did not wake up until 3 pm!  Sweet, I thought, I managed to sleep away most of this day – but then I started weeping.  Alarryk is still not here.  I sent a barrage of text messages, hoping for a miraculous response, knowing … Read More

jenniferlreimerZap, Zap, Zap…oh, I forgot about you, Effexor!

Effexor Withdrawal Video Blog

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The cure for Effexor withdrawal? Effexor! But I would rather go through a month of hell than several years of discomfort…can’t they just knock me out for a month? Scary…very scary… kinda makes you want to choose “Effexor for Life!” And all of the YouTube “commenters” are on 150 mg – a third of what I’m on. If you live … Read More

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SSRI Withdrawal Syndrome: Brain Shivers/Brain Zaps and Permanent Brain Damage

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…makes quite a bit of sense…kind of like a very mild version of electroconvulsive “therapy” on a daily basis…I would imagine that would cause brain damage, and that the damage would increase with time… I wonder how much pharma-junkies like me and this youtube poster outnumber those addicted to “illegal substances”…I’m sure the statistics are staggering, but will never be … Read More

jenniferlreimerSSRI Withdrawal Syndrome: Brain Shivers/Brain Zaps and Permanent Brain Damage

“Brain Shivers”: From Chatroom to Clinic” – I beg to differ!!

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Effexor: Evil?, Psychiatrists

The following article claims that brain-zaps or “brain shivers” – part of the withdrawal syndrome one experiences when getting off Effexor as well as certain SSRIs (some are worse than others – i.e. Paxil) are a phenomenon that arose not from these brain-disabling drugs, but from blogs and chat forums on the internet, including Brainzaps: A Journal of Effexor Withdrawal! … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Brain Shivers”: From Chatroom to Clinic” – I beg to differ!!

erowid.org – The Venlafaxine (Effexor) Vault

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A series of “random” events yesterday led me to Erowid.  I would imagine a lot of readers are familiar with the site, the subtitle of which is “documenting the complex relationship between humans and psychoactives”.  As a teenager, my friends and I used it to look up the “effects” and “duration” of pot or magic mushrooms or “ecstasy”.  As I’ve … Read More

jenniferlreimererowid.org – The Venlafaxine (Effexor) Vault

Brainzapitis

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Type letter…*ZAP*…type letter…*ZAP*…type letter *ZAP*… Listen to the water boiling in the kitchen…ZAPZAPZAPZAPZAPZAP. I bet you no doctor knows why I suddenly have come down with a bad case of brainzapitis. But I do. I am on: Effexor 450 mg, Lamictal 250 mg, Klonopin/clonazepam 4.5 mg.  One would think the clonazepam would dull the brain zaps on the very worst … Read More

jenniferlreimerBrainzapitis