*Just Released*…

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Sociology of Medicine, The Psych Ward

…from the psych ward (where else?).  Allow me a few days to sum up the private apocalypse that landed me in the place of pills in paper ketchup cups, code whites, and arts and crafts for adults with child-safe scissors for four weeks, including half of December 2012, and the festivities that surely followed…  scars XO

jenniferlreimer*Just Released*…

How I Pulled Myself Out of the Gutter: Part One (The Gutter)

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", East Van, Longer Stories, Mad Society, Sociology of Medicine, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Part One is Dedicated to Wendy M. that I met at the “Hotel Vic” (unit six and Winnipeg’s Victoria General Hospital) and who has been a close friend ever since: For reminding me what a friend really is, and believing in me when I no longer believed in myself. Part One: The Gutter – Destruction, Discrimination, Death-Wishes January through April, … Read More

jenniferlreimerHow I Pulled Myself Out of the Gutter: Part One (The Gutter)

RSVP: Répondez, S’il Vous Plaît (No, I am not going to my high school’s ten year reunion)

jenniferlreimerLaughter = Survival, Mad Society, The Psych Ward

Once in a while we meet people that we can truly be ourselves around.  I think that when we spend time interacting with such people, we get to know ourselves better which is somewhat ironic because these tend to be the people that we find the most genuinely interesting.  We get excited when we talk to each other: There is … Read More

jenniferlreimerRSVP: Répondez, S’il Vous Plaît (No, I am not going to my high school’s ten year reunion)

Six Feet Under: Television for Serial Insomniacs, Christmas Rejects, and the Terminally Insane

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Bipolar, Mad Society, Other Survivors, The Psych Ward, Transcend

It is 4:25 am.  My lucky number, 25.  Cat Power is singing in my ears and my dad is sound asleep in the hotel bed beside me, as I listen to Cat Power’s album Dear Sir, named after that poem written by Anne Sexton that I always mix up with the work of Sylvia Plath, and may have done the … Read More

jenniferlreimerSix Feet Under: Television for Serial Insomniacs, Christmas Rejects, and the Terminally Insane

Mad Pride in Toronto, July 10-15, 2012…

jenniferlreimerMy Favourite Authors, Other Survivors, The Psych Ward, Transcend

As you may well know, Toronto, Canada’s got Mad Pride, especially this weekend, when “Mad Pride Toronto” rallies in various venues throughout the city. I would love to do a book launch there myself, sometime in the not-so-distant future.  For now, I want to remind anyone who doesn’t already about the convergence, and share a little news about what’s happened … Read More

jenniferlreimerMad Pride in Toronto, July 10-15, 2012…

Something in Between, I Guess

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, The Psych Ward, Transcend

I have a brand new scar on my left calf, and the story of how it got there is a real doozer.  I am reminded of the lyrics of two of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs: “It looks like freedom but it feels like death, it’s something in between, I guess, it’s closing time.” (“Closing Time”, L. Cohen) and, “There’s … Read More

jenniferlreimerSomething in Between, I Guess

“Have You Taken Your Meds Today?”

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, Feminism and Madness, Mad Society, Meds, Meds, Meds!, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Alas, a question that us psych patients have heard far too many times – after all, one time is “too many” – from our nearest and dearest.  However, it was no one near, nor dear, that, very bizarrely, popped the question to me the other day.  An “anonymous” prank phone caller, after eerily listing off a list of women’s names in monotone … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Have You Taken Your Meds Today?”

What is Folie à Deux? (feat. “Madness in the Fast Lane” Documentary)

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Documentaries, Mad Society, Other Survivors, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Folie à Deux (English pronunciation /foˈli ə ˈduː/, From the French “a madness shared by two”  ) or Shared Psychosis is a psychiatric syndrome characterized by symptoms of a delusional belief being transmitted from one individual to another.The Same syndrome in more than two people may be called “Folie À Trois” (3), “Folie à Quatre” (4), “Folie à Famille” (“Family”, … Read More

jenniferlreimerWhat is Folie à Deux? (feat. “Madness in the Fast Lane” Documentary)

Tell Me Your New Year’s Resolutions!! Here Are Mine…

jenniferlreimerMeds, Meds, Meds!, Other Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Happy 2012, all!  Oh, how you have enriched my lives during the one that has just passed…I think the growth of this little community was the most positive part of 2011 for me – pretty damn awesome – though the year in general was a pile of horseshit.  Three months of homelessness, my first hospitalization at the psych ward in five … Read More

jenniferlreimerTell Me Your New Year’s Resolutions!! Here Are Mine…

Chasing Ghosts/What Flu Season? It’s Effexor Withdrawal Season…

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, Effexor: Evil?, Feminism and Madness, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward, Transcend

A week into my new antidepressant-free existence, the withdrawal syndrome (from Effexor XR, taken for seven years,  six of them spent at 450 mg, this most recent one on 300 mg after a 150 mg in one shot taper during my hospital stay in February – the first one of those in five years… :takuts ) caught up with Ms. … Read More

jenniferlreimerChasing Ghosts/What Flu Season? It’s Effexor Withdrawal Season…

“You’re Fired”: Why I Hate Donald Trump, but Love Firing a Bad Psychiatrist

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward, Transcend, Uncategorized

When I was released from the hospital, here in Vancouver – St. Paul’s denison of horrors to be specific – in February, one condition of my freedom was that I see a psychiatrist at one of the regional hubs for “mental health team” intervention in the city.  I had tried utilizing this service once before, when I first moved here, … Read More

jenniferlreimer“You’re Fired”: Why I Hate Donald Trump, but Love Firing a Bad Psychiatrist

Post-Surgical Opiate Withdrawal Diaries: The Sociology of Shakes, Sweats, and…

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", East Van, Laughter = Survival, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Sociology of Medicine, The Psych Ward

…”number twos”. Last Wednesday afternoon, as I sat in the waiting room at the methadone clinic – I had once before accidentally walked into thinking it was an ordinary walk-in medical clinic –  after being sent there by my GP who told me that it was now my only option aside from inpatient detox (an option I was not interested … Read More

jenniferlreimerPost-Surgical Opiate Withdrawal Diaries: The Sociology of Shakes, Sweats, and…

“Yes, that was a weird thing to do…”

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Mad Society, Poetry, Prose, Personal, The Psych Ward

“…to ask me to read my IKEA bill aloud.  What’s going on?  What’s wrong?”, I ask my dad.  2000 miles away he sits in a dark, well-furnished but empty, tastefully decorated bedroom.  Cherry coloured wood with muted silver.  The bedding is folded perfectly, ready for you to get in, isn’t it.  I wonder if I will be able to afford … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Yes, that was a weird thing to do…”

What Happened in the Sky in Vancouver in Late January, 2011?

jenniferlreimerOther Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, The Psych Ward, Transcend

On the morning of my recent psych ward admission, a bizarre orange light was observed in the skies over Vancouver.  I didn’t call myself an ambulance until night, so folks in the emergency room were not speaking of this anymore by the time my yelling body arrived, but they sure were in the morning.  My new roommate, who has quickly … Read More

jenniferlreimerWhat Happened in the Sky in Vancouver in Late January, 2011?