New Personality Quizzes: Handwriting and Attachment

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Just a note to let you know that two new quizzes are available in the “Am I Crazy?” area.  The amount of pressure I put on paper when I write explains my “bipolar” symptoms! :p The test on attachment styles is far better.  Psychologists say that our personalities, and damage done by trauma, is revealed more by attachment styles than … Read More

jenniferlreimerNew Personality Quizzes: Handwriting and Attachment

A Letter to No One, Everyone, and All in Between (April 2013)

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if it is not emboldened it might not make sense oh, You, I will slow down… why is April of all months the way that it always is.  Always a surprise.  Just like that cursed survival instinct that forces a person to put their feet on the ground every single morning before realizing that everything is gone or on fire … Read More

jenniferlreimerA Letter to No One, Everyone, and All in Between (April 2013)

Wanderlust, Medicalized.

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I meant to write a post about “wanderlust” long ago, for the most part to show you this amazing music video.  If you do not like Bjork just turn the volume off and put on some music that you do like: Unfortunately, wanderlust, from the German, making me think of Nietzsche wandering the alps and thinking of all the things … Read More

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…but could not address: 4 (My New Psychiatrist)

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Oh god, I’m sending out a message to five people at once. I feel like one of my religious relatives. They print off these letters en masse because they’re real breeders – grandchildren in the 50s – the digits, not the age group! However, I promise not to mention Jesus and I don’t have any kids to list off along … Read More

jenniferlreimer…but could not address: 4 (My New Psychiatrist)

Anxiety Squared: My Soul is Shaking

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

For the ??th time today, my entire being is shaking.  Literally, my hands tremble and hit the wrong keys as I attempt to type this.  Backspace.  Each time I wake up – which is often after the stress bomb that went off two weeks ago when my status went from having a home to being homeless for the fourth or … Read More

jenniferlreimerAnxiety Squared: My Soul is Shaking

Something in Between, I Guess

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, The Psych Ward, Transcend

I have a brand new scar on my left calf, and the story of how it got there is a real doozer.  I am reminded of the lyrics of two of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs: “It looks like freedom but it feels like death, it’s something in between, I guess, it’s closing time.” (“Closing Time”, L. Cohen) and, “There’s … Read More

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My Cat and I Caused My Aunt to Drive Off a Cliff :(

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Feminism and Madness, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

In a previous post, I mentioned that my aunt was under the belief that I had read a letter she wrote me about who was to blame for the car “accident” that took place when she attempted to drive me to Vancouver.  (My belief firmly remains that no one is to blame but that it was her responsibility to drive us … Read More

jenniferlreimerMy Cat and I Caused My Aunt to Drive Off a Cliff :(

The Twenty Year-Old (and the Sixty-Five Year-Old)

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

The Twenty Year Old (and The Sixty Four Year Old) My sister finally made an appearance at my dad’s house “for Christmas” after being absent for my entire ten day visit, including Christmas dinner.  I was flabbergasted that she is not fed words by my father that would induce a guilt trip – each morning during my visit, when he … Read More

jenniferlreimerThe Twenty Year-Old (and the Sixty-Five Year-Old)

Curtain Call, Dear Tori (Tori Amos, Orpheum Theatre, Vancouver, December 13, 2011)

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Feminism and Madness, Mad Music, Mad Society, Transcend

1. Curtain Call Many musicians can make up beautiful melodies.  Another handful can write some thought-provoking lyrics to accompany the sounds they create.  Sometimes, profundity can even be captured in a rhyme.  Then, there are composers who are true storytellers, whose voices tap into the collective harmonies that we, social beings, are huculamming at a particular time, in particular space. … Read More

jenniferlreimerCurtain Call, Dear Tori (Tori Amos, Orpheum Theatre, Vancouver, December 13, 2011)

How to turn lead into gold, back in East Van.

jenniferlreimerBipolar, East Van, Mad Society, Other Survivors

I like this a lot! I found this, walking down my street (says “B.C. GAS”  )  : I flipped it over: And I did this! That’s more like it!  A beautiful addition to Magick Garden 2.0 (pictures of this year’s yet to be posted) for $3.99.  Yellow roses mean “I’m sorry”, apparently.  Yellow roses have always been my favourite.  Before … Read More

jenniferlreimerHow to turn lead into gold, back in East Van.

Is Mania Contagious?

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Other Survivors, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward, Transcend

(NB: I see that I have three new messages in my inbox since my last post this afternoon – I am deducing that they are from facebook mom, as she was concerned that I had deleted previous messages.  Indeed, I had marked them as spam to get to later, as I have been receiving a lot of awesome and pertinent … Read More

jenniferlreimerIs Mania Contagious?

scarsarestories’ Radical New Year’s Resolutions

jenniferlreimerBipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, The Psych Ward, Transcend

1. I have emancipated myself completely from any financial or emotional entaglements with my family.  Thus, I will not be ridden by guilt mixed with my father’s own complexes about debt and baby-boomer cognitive dissonance about riding the wave of booms in the 1980s, only to leave their children with no job market, and to find themselves in debt that … Read More

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Traveling While Bipolar (Guest Post #2)

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Bipolar Disorder Sufferers – Eight Things to Do To Prepare for Travel.  Plus, build your own Tool Box! (by Shah Wharton) As many of you know by now, I have bipolar disorder and travel worries are still a young issue with me. I used to put it down to claustrophobia however, not bipolar disorder. I learned only recently that it’s … Read More

jenniferlreimerTraveling While Bipolar (Guest Post #2)

Treated like a Criminal for Being in Pain? Got Mental Illness, too?: Psychiatry’s Fetish With “Dual Diagnosis”

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I’ve been bleeding for eleven days now. I am sick and tired.  My endometriosis is getting worse just as it did last winter.  Each period is more painful, and I’m driven a little batty this time, by my family’s reaction to the fact that I control the pain with hydromorphone (Dilaudid).  She’s bipolar and she’s taking potentially addictive medication. Though … Read More

jenniferlreimerTreated like a Criminal for Being in Pain? Got Mental Illness, too?: Psychiatry’s Fetish With “Dual Diagnosis”

Is Tori Amos Bipolar?

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Feminism and Madness, Mad Music, Other Survivors

“Caves of the unconscious…” – is Tori “manic depressive” – excuse the political incorrectness, “bipolar” –        for feeling sometimes like she’s going to die because of suddenly horrible circumstances that force one to ask if it is really worth the pain, and at other times feeling like she could conquer a government?  So far, she just gets … Read More

jenniferlreimerIs Tori Amos Bipolar?