Anxiety Squared: My Soul is Shaking

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

For the ??th time today, my entire being is shaking.  Literally, my hands tremble and hit the wrong keys as I attempt to type this.  Backspace.  Each time I wake up – which is often after the stress bomb that went off two weeks ago when my status went from having a home to being homeless for the fourth or … Read More

jenniferlreimerAnxiety Squared: My Soul is Shaking

…but could not address: 3 (“Love is Won”)

jenniferlreimer...but could not address.

Dear old friend, So, I agree with Lia Ices, Love is Won, fellow mystic [hu]man.  You and other friends have won mine, though no one that I am actively friends with right now (in regular communication with, planning visits in the not-too-distant-future, etc.  ) has known me for as long as you have: half my life, as of this October … Read More

jenniferlreimer…but could not address: 3 (“Love is Won”)

Creative Genius or Psychotic?

jenniferlreimerPoetry, Prose, Personal, Scars' Art, Transcend

Ha.  Quite the question. I have seen the lines, in my own mind, in projections of my mind – sometimes sentences spoken take on a third dimension. All the time I ask myself if I am absolutely nuts. Quite frankly. I wonder if I suffered permanent brain damage after my seizure in 2005 that is not enough to be worth … Read More

jenniferlreimerCreative Genius or Psychotic?

“Have You Taken Your Meds Today?”

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, Feminism and Madness, Mad Society, Meds, Meds, Meds!, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Alas, a question that us psych patients have heard far too many times – after all, one time is “too many” – from our nearest and dearest.  However, it was no one near, nor dear, that, very bizarrely, popped the question to me the other day.  An “anonymous” prank phone caller, after eerily listing off a list of women’s names in monotone … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Have You Taken Your Meds Today?”

Kumbaya Blogging and Online Communities

jenniferlreimerMad Society, Transcend

“Kumbaya is the future, because it’s how we’re wired. We’re social monkeys, and we’ll form a community given the least excuse to do so. Combine mass communication technology with that hard wiring and you’ve got a potent combination.” Amen!  I do not share links all that often, do I?  However, I was sent an e-mail with a link to this … Read More

jenniferlreimerKumbaya Blogging and Online Communities

Alienated from my species-being no more! Friendship, movement, home.

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Other Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

Moving day tomorrow.  The nomad has used up one more residence, in that the memories that coat these walls like cigarette smoke have reached the unbearable point.  Interesting, that a break-up with a lover did not push me away – I wanted to stay here very much, although the money-factor was always unrealistic, in an apartment that finally looked less … Read More

jenniferlreimerAlienated from my species-being no more! Friendship, movement, home.

The Riverview Mental Hospital of British Columbia – Photos and Ghosts?

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", The Psych Ward

Here are the photos I took with some some special Hipstamatic effects that make the place look almost as freaky as it does up close and personal… (an ominous “welcome” in the rain) 😆 (oops!) (an attempt to look inside the abandoned building – freaky as hell!) (I tried to open the door; indeed, it was locked!  Notices from the … Read More

jenniferlreimerThe Riverview Mental Hospital of British Columbia – Photos and Ghosts?

Just Another Day at the Pharmacy…Big Pharma Planting Toxic Seeds at British Columbia Universities

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!

How wonderful… I happened to have to sit and wait at the pharmacy to pick up my meds today, a very unusual occurrence.  A young man, who appeared to be around the same age as me, entered through the door one second before me, with a “triplicate” prescription in hand, which always present difficulties at pharmacies here in B.C. – … Read More

jenniferlreimerJust Another Day at the Pharmacy…Big Pharma Planting Toxic Seeds at British Columbia Universities

“You can at least take that responsibility upon yourself!”

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Bipolar

Another journey up to the campus has me raving mad.  Alaryyk had to take us on a long drive around the surrounding suburbs before our next stop so that I could rage and sing at the top of my lungs. Today was the last day before summer orientation (read: a lot of 18 year-olds, bad dance music being blasted across … Read More

jenniferlreimer“You can at least take that responsibility upon yourself!”

“A Little Bit Pregnant”

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness

I have known way too many women who have been on psychiatric medication and who have also had various reproductive diseases to think for one second that there is no correlation.  I know – correlation does not mean causation, but give me a break.  I’m sure the APA would love to claim that this connection functions backwards – that women … Read More

jenniferlreimer“A Little Bit Pregnant”

Letter to a JOHN

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Laughter = Survival, Mad Music

I have begun scanning through the comments page, and will soon get back to you and resume blogging as usual as of April 24th. Scanning the comments I came to the very pleasant realization that… our blog has reached the next level, as we have received our first… HATE LETTER. Yes, I named this post after one of my favourite … Read More

jenniferlreimerLetter to a JOHN

That’s nuts.

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Mad Society

This is intended to be read after reading Alaryyk’s post below. How anyone could fathom that pointing rifles at someone’s head with K9 units’ foaming mouths looming behind them could be in any way conducive to “mental health”?  One of the complaints that friends of Alaryyk had been making before this police intervention occurred was that he had been “acting … Read More

jenniferlreimerThat’s nuts.

Good ol’ Effexor rears its ugly head again…

jenniferlreimerEffexor: Evil?, Meds, Meds, Meds!

A description of Effexor (XR) and its “effects” and withdrawal syndrome from the bizzare site – a site that seems to be purporting the use of psychiatric medications, but also making fun of and at the same time warning people of possible horrors?  I feel morally ambiguous about the site, but it offered a quite accurate description of meds … Read More

jenniferlreimerGood ol’ Effexor rears its ugly head again…

From “”…amusing reviews of psychiatrists I’ve seen in the past:


First one I ever saw, along with my ex-ex-ex-partner/serial sexual offender, Dr. Stewart Wakeman (Winnipeg, MB): 1. Avoid this doctor. He is hostile and has his own issues to work through. His approach is both unconventional and unprofessional. For instance, he yelled at me during our first session, which is unacceptable on two levels. One, he didn’t know me well … Read More

jenniferlreimerFrom “”…amusing reviews of psychiatrists I’ve seen in the past:

“Health Care” in British Columbia is a Corporatist, Sanist Sham

jenniferlreimer"Health Care"

I moved to this province in May.  You are to qualify for “Fair PharmaCare” 3 months after you move here, which I did.  You needed to provide the amount off a certain line on your tax return, and since my tax return papers from last year are back in my home province, the individual that has them remembers well giving … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Health Care” in British Columbia is a Corporatist, Sanist Sham