What is Your Favorite Word? (Dénouement)

jenniferlreimerOther Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal

The telegram says you have gone away
And left our bankrupt circus on its town;

There is nothing more for me to say.

The maestro gives the singing birds their pay

And they buy tickets for the tropic zone;

The telegram says you have gone away.

jenniferlreimerWhat is Your Favorite Word? (Dénouement)

Searching for Permanence on the Downtown Eastside (Broken Glass)

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Effexor: Evil?, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Other Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, Transcend

If you have read some past posts I’ve written about the Downtown Eastside (DTES) (most can be found here), “Canada’s poorest postal code”, Vancouver’s skid-row, “the site of the only open-air drug market in Canada” <quick, get the children away from the TV set!>, you know that I’m a little enamoured with the place.  Like me, it’s got very visible … Read More

jenniferlreimerSearching for Permanence on the Downtown Eastside (Broken Glass)

“The Little Girl Crying” – Guest Post by Catherine333

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Guest Posts, Other Survivors

I have a new favourite blog – well, to sit alongside my other favourites! “the naked truth: me, my mental illness, and i” is incredible if you, like I, enjoy hearing voices that echo not my own per say, but what I feel like inside.  Catherine333’s blog is courageously raw and uncut, and I can relate to the words that … Read More

jenniferlreimer“The Little Girl Crying” – Guest Post by Catherine333

Sudden outbursts of tears – is this a side-effect of Trazodone?

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, Psychiatrists

What’s the matter with me? My life has gone through much upheaval lately, but for the better.  Most of the time I’ve been feeling great.  However, during the past week or so, I’ve been struck down by sudden bouts of “I don’t think I’m ever going to stop crying” at some point in the evening.  These “events” come completely at … Read More

jenniferlreimerSudden outbursts of tears – is this a side-effect of Trazodone?

Zap, Zap, Zap…oh, I forgot about you, Effexor!

jenniferlreimerEffexor: Evil?

IT ALL MAKES SENSE!… I woke up at 6 am, 8 am, and then fell asleep and did not wake up until 3 pm!  Sweet, I thought, I managed to sleep away most of this day – but then I started weeping.  Alarryk is still not here.  I sent a barrage of text messages, hoping for a miraculous response, knowing … Read More

jenniferlreimerZap, Zap, Zap…oh, I forgot about you, Effexor!

Too Slow!

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Poetry, Prose, Personal

Much too slow for my brain, this physical recovery. Today I…got up at 11am (I’m usually up around 8 without an alarm), sheets soaked in sweat, got dressed, walked the six blocks to the pharmacy and back with Alaryyk, went to a doctor’s appointment by vehicle (yes, I see a doctor every day.  sometimes twice.), went to the pharmacy again, … Read More

jenniferlreimerToo Slow!

Scar’s lost writings… While being abused, 2004

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Poetry, Prose, Personal

Maybe I could just start drinking a lot of coffee. I find myself sitting silently again, in a room full of noise, alone amongst my closest friends du jour, alone not with my thoughts but with the emptiness that fills my head at times like these.  They all think I’m quiet, never considering that perhaps I just don’t have anything … Read More

jenniferlreimerScar’s lost writings… While being abused, 2004

“Us People”

jenniferlreimerMad Society, Poetry, Prose, Personal

It’s mid-morning and the birds are singing.  Alaryyk is sleeping soundly beside me and an old episode of “Law and Order” is on TV in the background.  I have my “Ofelia” IKEA blanket draped over me – god, even my IKEA purchases reflect my interests in madness and gender?  I’m in a fair amount of pain – what I probably … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Us People”

I started singing out loud.

jenniferlreimerMad Music, Poetry, Prose, Personal

When Alaryyk was in the hospital over the “Holiday/Merry Capitalism Season” and into January the bus trip to visit him (at another University Campus) took an hour sometimes, and when visiting hours were over we could only push things so far.  This album grew on me and this song made me decide to become “one of those people” that sings … Read More

jenniferlreimerI started singing out loud.

Warning: No Tears Allowed

jenniferlreimerFeminism and Madness, Meds, Meds, Meds!

I have to pick up my psychiatric medications on a daily basis, because when I was feeling extremely depressed “for no reason”, on my 25th birthday (not yet knowing that I was pregnant, and the number 25 has always showed up in strange places in my life – maybe you have such a number) I took an “overdose” of clonazepam, … Read More

jenniferlreimerWarning: No Tears Allowed