Six Feet Under: Television for Serial Insomniacs, Christmas Rejects, and the Terminally Insane

jenniferlreimerAcademia is Nuts!, Bipolar, Mad Society, Other Survivors, The Psych Ward, Transcend

It is 4:25 am.  My lucky number, 25.  Cat Power is singing in my ears and my dad is sound asleep in the hotel bed beside me, as I listen to Cat Power’s album Dear Sir, named after that poem written by Anne Sexton that I always mix up with the work of Sylvia Plath, and may have done the … Read More

jenniferlreimerSix Feet Under: Television for Serial Insomniacs, Christmas Rejects, and the Terminally Insane

Something in Between, I Guess

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Meds, Meds, Meds!, The Psych Ward, Transcend

I have a brand new scar on my left calf, and the story of how it got there is a real doozer.  I am reminded of the lyrics of two of my favourite Leonard Cohen songs: “It looks like freedom but it feels like death, it’s something in between, I guess, it’s closing time.” (“Closing Time”, L. Cohen) and, “There’s … Read More

jenniferlreimerSomething in Between, I Guess

Tell Me Your New Year’s Resolutions!! Here Are Mine…

jenniferlreimerMeds, Meds, Meds!, Other Survivors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, The Psych Ward, Transcend

Happy 2012, all!  Oh, how you have enriched my lives during the one that has just passed…I think the growth of this little community was the most positive part of 2011 for me – pretty damn awesome – though the year in general was a pile of horseshit.  Three months of homelessness, my first hospitalization at the psych ward in five … Read More

jenniferlreimerTell Me Your New Year’s Resolutions!! Here Are Mine…

“Walked into the Winter, Came Out on the Other Side…”

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, East Van, Effexor: Evil?, Other Survivors, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward

Sing it, Conor! Today in Vancouver: I was released from the psychiatric ward at St. Paul’s Hospital, and the sun came out, releasing the crocuses from the ground – how poetic.  I feel like I should post seperately about a litany of issues that arose upon my exit from this specific institutionalization, some (one? :gila:   ) positive, the rest negative, … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Walked into the Winter, Came Out on the Other Side…”

Trying to get the last word in from 2000 miles away?

jenniferlreimerMy Favourite Authors, Poetry, Prose, Personal, The Psych Ward, Transcend

About to be released from the psych ward, pairing up with a great new friend I met here to get our lives in order (one more time now! :rain:   ) and keep the pact made that we will try our very damnedest from now on to live each day such that we please each of our selves and are happy with and … Read More

jenniferlreimerTrying to get the last word in from 2000 miles away?

Running on Remeron. And Chartwell’s.

jenniferlreimerMeds, Meds, Meds!, Other Survivors, Scars' Art, The Psych Ward, Transcend, Uncategorized

Last night, my arrival back to the ward from this Internet café across the street where I will spend my “pass” time, as all I can fathom needing other than what’s provided for me – a shower (with a velcro curtain…I was previously unfamiliar with this creative method of attachment!), a toothbrush and toothpaste (I was at the point of … Read More

jenniferlreimerRunning on Remeron. And Chartwell’s.

Is Mania Contagious?

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Other Survivors, Psychiatrists, The Psych Ward, Transcend

(NB: I see that I have three new messages in my inbox since my last post this afternoon – I am deducing that they are from facebook mom, as she was concerned that I had deleted previous messages.  Indeed, I had marked them as spam to get to later, as I have been receiving a lot of awesome and pertinent … Read More

jenniferlreimerIs Mania Contagious?

“I must admit, I’ve become quite the addict.”

jenniferlreimerThe Psych Ward

Says Anne Sexton, and say I, as I continue the mind-bending process of coming off Effexor.  Indeed, I am so f’d up, that my gay boyfriend, who I met and married in the psych ward, who says I am beyond flaky and is looking for new blood, had to stop me from writing “of Effexor”.  It’s time to “cruise dinner”.  For me, … Read More

jenniferlreimer“I must admit, I’ve become quite the addict.”

How long does it take you to get over a “break-up”? How long *should* it take?

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Feminism and Madness, Other Survivors, The Psych Ward

With the spark of renewed faith in the blogosphere to create communities of like-minded thinkers, unite people from all around the world, around the world (that song will be stuck in my head for some time now)…and to serve as a (“virtual” 😛 ) environment to facilitate useful debate among open-minded people: thesis, antithesis, synthesis, repeat…I spent the rest of … Read More

jenniferlreimerHow long does it take you to get over a “break-up”? How long *should* it take?

Released from the psych ward!

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", The Psych Ward

[show_avatar [email protected] align=left] When Alarryyk was offered a stay at a less “secure” inpatient psychiatric facility for the next night or two, we thought this might be a good idea. Until we found out that a condition of him being transferred there would be being drugged up with Haldol for the commute (reason: none provided) – Haldol is one of … Read More

jenniferlreimerReleased from the psych ward!

The Richmond Hospital P.E.U. – a psych ward for each season! :p

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Bipolar, The Psych Ward

[show_avatar [email protected] align=left] *Big sigh*.  Well, I finally found a reason to take the “Canada Line” skytrain, built for the 2010 Olympic Games, here in Vancouver – in B.C., “The Best Place On Earth”! – to visit Alarryyk at the Richmond General Hospital, where he was taken after a short stay at another hospital around 70 mile house. “They did … Read More

jenniferlreimerThe Richmond Hospital P.E.U. – a psych ward for each season! :p

“Memory Lane”

jenniferlreimerThe Psych Ward

The best song I’ve found thus far that describes the psych ward experience.  Elliott Smith killed himself after a fight with his girlfriend by stabbing himself several times in the chest.  Many assume that he died of a heroin overdose, but he had stopped using for a year.  Lyrics below. This is the place you end up when you lose … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Memory Lane”

Journals from my first hospitalization (the only “voluntary” one out of five)…how naive I was…

jenniferlreimerEffexor: Evil?, The Psych Ward

At precisely eight am a nurse knocks on a door and I am awoken. “Doing alright in here?  We’ll bring you breakfast in about an hour.” A few minutes later the lights brighten andd I start to cry because time is regulated the same way on flights across the International Date Line, triggering memories of Japan, of a day when … Read More

jenniferlreimerJournals from my first hospitalization (the only “voluntary” one out of five)…how naive I was…

“Everyone Gets a PRN for Ativan upon Arrival…”

jenniferlreimerThe Psych Ward

A short, unfinished piece written about the psych ward I frequented in Winnipeg, Manitoba… Everyone gets a PRN for Ativan upon arrival. “Nurse, can I get an Ativan?” “You would eat these things like tic-tacs if you could, wouldn’t you!” But they never say no; they’re the ones passing out pills like candy.  So we eat them to pass the … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Everyone Gets a PRN for Ativan upon Arrival…”