a rant before going into interzone, 2005

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Poetry, Prose, Personal

I must have written this early in the morning of the day that I disappeared for several before New Year’s, finding myself in a bathtub at my dad’s house, trying to die on New Year’s Eve.  Does it give me any insight into why I disappeared?  Unfortunately not.  It’s interesting though… 3:44 am, Tuesday December 27, 2005 A rant. The … Read More

jenniferlreimera rant before going into interzone, 2005

Titicut Follies: Full Length Documentary

jenniferlreimerDocumentaries, The Psych Ward

The famed, banned documentary, captures everyday life in a mental institution in 1967, and showed the world the violence and abusive treatment that inmates were subject to for the first time.  This film is a must-see for anyone who is interested in psychiatry.  It should be a must-see for everyone.  I can’t see many people disagreeing with the fact that … Read More

jenniferlreimerTiticut Follies: Full Length Documentary

Bipolar Expeditions

jenniferlreimerBipolar, My Favourite Authors

I am deep into my coursework, but can’t help but take a minute to quote a few lines from the book I am reading for my most important (read: favourite) final paper. The book is an autoethnography called Bipolar Expeditions by Emily Martin, that I would recommend to anyone, even if they are not social science students.  She has provided … Read More

jenniferlreimerBipolar Expeditions

That’s nuts.

jenniferlreimer"Health Care", Mad Society

This is intended to be read after reading Alaryyk’s post below. How anyone could fathom that pointing rifles at someone’s head with K9 units’ foaming mouths looming behind them could be in any way conducive to “mental health”?  One of the complaints that friends of Alaryyk had been making before this police intervention occurred was that he had been “acting … Read More

jenniferlreimerThat’s nuts.

(Hilarious) Vintage Effexor XR Ad

jenniferlreimerAds and Commercials

One benefit of the fact that magazines in doctors’ offices are usually at least 5 years old is you get to look at old ads!  When I found this Effexor XR ad from the late-1990s, when it was still being marketed as an anti-anxiety medication, I had to have it.  Alaryyk and I posted it on the back of our … Read More

jenniferlreimer(Hilarious) Vintage Effexor XR Ad

Parents *love* to film their “bipolar children” and post the videos on youtube!

jenniferlreimerBipolar, Documentaries

Here are some more videos of children afflicted with “Pediatric Bipolar Disorder” found on youtube.  Kids being kids, or kids with a psychiatric illness requiring strong medication?  You decide.  You know where I stand on the issue. What is painfully obvious is that the parents of these children love to grab the camcorder, video-tape their bipolar behaviour in action (often … Read More

jenniferlreimerParents *love* to film their “bipolar children” and post the videos on youtube!

Why I won’t erase my scars.

jenniferlreimerScars

On December 29th, 2006, after disappearing from my home for three days after a bout of depression (the one I naively believed would be my last 🙁 ), I came to in a motel room with my pants and underwear off.  Two men hovered over me, and threatened that they would kill me if I left.  I ran for my … Read More

jenniferlreimerWhy I won’t erase my scars.

“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #4

jenniferlreimerPsychiatrists, Scars' Letters of Complaint

Perhaps my all-time favourite, written to the director of health services at my University’s “health clinic”… Dear _______ ______, Subject: Formal Complaint (re: Dr. Basson) and Appeal of Fine I am writing this letter to bring to your attention the unprofessional, condescending, and outright disturbing psychiatric treatment I was subject to under the care of the psychiatrist employed by __________’s … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #4

“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #3

jenniferlreimerScars' Letters of Complaint

Aeroplan Number: ___ ___ ___ September 22, 2008 Aeroplan Centre P.O. Box 7737 Station Terminal Vancouver, BC V6B5W9 Dear Sir or Madam: I am writing this letter after recently realizing that my Aeroplan points have been erased.  I am requesting that they be reinstated, as a medical condition has prevented me from traveling over the past several years, causing my … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #3

“Everyone Gets a PRN for Ativan upon Arrival…”

jenniferlreimerThe Psych Ward

A short, unfinished piece written about the psych ward I frequented in Winnipeg, Manitoba… Everyone gets a PRN for Ativan upon arrival. “Nurse, can I get an Ativan?” “You would eat these things like tic-tacs if you could, wouldn’t you!” But they never say no; they’re the ones passing out pills like candy.  So we eat them to pass the … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Everyone Gets a PRN for Ativan upon Arrival…”

“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #2

jenniferlreimerScars' Letters of Complaint

February 6, 2010 Mr. Dan Kooner c/o Shopper’s Drug Mart/D. Kooner Pharmacy 1755 Broadway E. Vancouver, BC V5N1W2 Dear Mr. Kooner, First of all, I would like to thank you and your pharmacy staff for accommodating my medical needs, beginning last July.  Yet my reason for writing this letter is a very unfortunate, and, to be frank, quite disturbing one.  … Read More

jenniferlreimer“Letters of Complaint: The Art of Getting What You Deserve as a Human Being” – Letter #2

A desperate letter from the Amazon Jungle…indeed, I am home early, and can hardly believe I made it…this correspondence sent to a friend sums it up to some degree…

jenniferlreimerPoetry, Prose, Personal

Dearest ____ , oh my fucking god…or i guess i should say “jésus cristo” after leaving Lima things started to turn bad…we took a bus to a “desert oasis”…i assumed this would entail sand and a beach of some sort? but no…it was a strange touristy place, very overpriced…we had to haul our huge suitcases (I AM NEVER TAKING A … Read More

jenniferlreimerA desperate letter from the Amazon Jungle…indeed, I am home early, and can hardly believe I made it…this correspondence sent to a friend sums it up to some degree…

Physical Pain vs. “Mental Pain”…

jenniferlreimerPoetry, Prose, Personal, Sociology of Medicine

Now finding myself in, what I suppose the docs would call “moderate to severe” physical pain, on a daily basis, due to long untreated endometriosis that was masked by atypical antipsychotics (this phenomenon is well documented, and I will provide links to articles later today) the old question of whether or not physical pain or mental anguish is more, shall … Read More

jenniferlreimerPhysical Pain vs. “Mental Pain”…

And falling into fall….

jenniferlreimerPoetry, Prose, Personal

1. Requiem for a Summer We work like slaves all year for this – a moment in the sun, blinded in gold, past sinks into present tense, the future does not exist. For this golden moment we believe this is true, and it is. But we fumble forward like ants, knowing that this comes, only to pass. For what is … Read More

jenniferlreimerAnd falling into fall….

A family of trees falling…more writing from last summer.

jenniferlreimerPoetry, Prose, Personal

Would you like your receipt?” Why are they printed when 90% of the time the answer is no?  They they’re thrown in the garbage, because we’re too lazy to walk the extra ten feet to a recycling bin?  But no one really knows where they end up either way, if recycling things is polluting the Earth as much as anything … Read More

jenniferlreimerA family of trees falling…more writing from last summer.